I lost my cat MinMin yesterday. he was only over 1.
i had him since he was a little kitten, although after this i took in 2 more strays. the 2 strays werent kittens so it wasnt the same feeling with them as it was with him. when i woke up in the mornings he used to bang me with his head to get petted, and he used to lay in my arms like a baby when i stroked his head. i love him so so much.
Yesterday morning i was concerned because he hadnt come home, as i leave the bottom window open for him.
When i was leaving for work i looked up the road and saw a little black thing in the distance and i knew right away it was him.
i drove up so hard onto the busy road, and squealed and roared when i saw it was him. i squealed so loud that my neighbour could hear me near the road.
my heart is breaking, and i mean breaking. i have never been this sad before. i buried him in my garden last night, and i spoke to him last night and this morning. but everytime i look around my house at the little spots where he used to lay or sleep, or play i break down again. although having the other 2 cats is comforting i cant cope.
i lifted one of my other strays today for a cuddle and they wiggled away from me and i broke down and started saying, minmin never pulled away from me and the tears started flowing again. no cat would ever be able to replace him, because he was so unique and such a mummys boy. he would cry when i called him, and cry while running into the house to see me. then when i left in the car he would stand in the garden and cry for me...
please can someone help me, as i dunno what to do. my partner is losing the sympathy now and things im goin on an on about 'JUST A CAT.' no one understands how i feel.
i am breaking down now even writing this...
My partner said, oh il get u a new kitten, but i dont want anymore kittens or animals as i cant bear this pain if anything happens again. and as i live near a busy road im just waiting now for it to happen again.
when i found my cat he wasnt on the road, he was on the path, so i think he got hit, and ran on in shock, got onto the path and couldnt make it anymore, he was only a few metres from my house, he just had to get thru the little bush path he went on and into the garden!
thats whats killing me the most, did i call him, and he heard me? and when he was running to come home, did he die at that point?
he wasnt flat, he was normal, no cuts or anything, like he was sleeping!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me someone. i dont think this pain will ever go away. he was one of a kind and i love him so so much.
what can i do to take this pain away?