Lakota: mama misses you more each day, although I have sassy, lady and koko to fiill my time, its like missing the very best friend in the world,and although I'am surrounded by people every day, its like I still feel so ALONE, This is the first birthday of mine in 14 yrs that we've not shared everything.
Mama misses and loves you so,you'll always stay in my heart forever, When you first died, I couldn't imagine life without you, and I felt so guilty that I had to make the decision to end your pain, I still feel guilty that I made you stay at the vets that last night,ALONE, I know you've forgiven me because you've visited me a few times and put your head on my ankle when I was in bed, Just like you always slept with me, But I don't know if I can ever find it in my heart to forgive myself, you always were the best of the pair, and the most forgiving of both of us. Mama loves you sweetie and misses you FOREVER
thank you for your visit last night, thats the best birthday present I could have asked for, except to have you back in my life once more. Love mama