i can't believe it's been a whole year since i lost my darling tabby cat Bella. she was only 10 months old. i was at work when i got the phone call to tell me she'd been hit by a car and killed instantly. i know i had been thinking of her at the moment of her death-i was looking forward to coming home to finish putting up decorations, and watch her play with the tinsel and the baubles.
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the pain i felt was the worst in my life,and i thought i would never get through it. it was not till the end of january that i could eat a meal again, and it was months before i could talk about her without sobbing. when i was in the depths of despair, i found this wonderful site where i soon found that everyone knew exactly how i was feeling and i could say what i wanted, and cry more than i ever have before! if it hadn't been for this site and some very special people, i dont know how i would have got through - i felt like i would never smile again. Gradually the sun started to shine again, and i mainly remember her with smiles and happiness.
tonight though, exactly a year since i lost her, my tears are falling again,and i wish i could bury my face in her soft sweet fur and tickle her chin and ears and watch her playing with the christmas baubles.
for everyone who is where i was a year ago tonight, i know the tears and pain you have ahead of you, but i know everyone on this site will give you as much love and support that they gave to me. although you will always love and miss your friend, you will smile again.
with lots of love. bella's mum.