In Memory of Pets

I lost my beautiful puppy on 9/24/11. This first week without him has been almost too much to handle. Feelings of sadness, pain, guilt, regret, and emptiness consume my every moment. I find myself many times trying to bargain like a little kid, waiting for him to drop from the sky right into my arms... I noticed he wasn't himself, but he was such a strong willed pup, that I thought he was just having a bad day and he would shake it off. The next day, I noticed he was still the same and that's when I decided to take him to the vet. Unfortunately, I took him too late. His health went downhill from there and didn't make it. I HATE myself for not taking him in time! If only we could turn back time and have a second chance to do things right... I miss coming home and watching him run over to greet me, him playing around with his 2 brothers, his adorable little bark and his howling at the ice cream truck songs. I miss his beautiful face and eyes looking up at me... But the thing that just kills me is that he didn't die after living a long, long, life... he went too soon. I remember the last day, I went over and laid by him, petted him and as he looked at me, I asked him to not leave me and I gave him a kiss. It kills me to also see my two other dogs looking around for him and looking up at me as if to ask me "Where is he?" All we are left with are the wonderful memories of how he made our lives worthwhile.... May God forever Bless you, My little Angel

It's so sad when they die before their time, the "what ifs" are a terrible thing to go through.
I lost my 16 year old cat Samantha and have beat myself up for not recognizing the signs that all was not well.
These wonderful creature who we let into out lives love and forgive us, we just have to forgive ourselves for being less then perfect.

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Thank you for your reply. I guess we all go through thinking of the what ifs and the if onlys. I just hope that in time I can forgive myself, even though now it seems impossible.

You gave him your ultimate love and he knows it. I noticed Bonnie wasn't acting right and took her to the vet,thinking it was a cold or something. She had many problems and they suggested I put her to sleeep. She was 12 years old. There isn't a day I don't second guess myself and I thought I my heart would break as I kissed her good bye. But you DID notice something was wrong and your puppy knows you helped him. I think they always know how much we will always love them.

I am so very sorry for your loss...

You and your little ones are in my thoughts and prayers,

Kerry

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